SO to conclude my last journal entry I did not make valedictorian, but i did use some humor to put a smile on the judges faces, and got a certificate for my portfolio so all is well.

Now that we are all preparing for exams and work term, and everything seems to be ending so quickly and slowly at the same time.. this is it, monday exams tuesday exams, work term and then i aint gotta go home, but i gotta get the hell outta there, Lol. SO now im searching around the net for a place to land. I need a apartment close to the hospital in Yarmouth and i need it in around 6 weeks time. :S. Bridgette's moving in with me, I didnt think it would be a huge deal because we spend like all day everyday together anyways, but in away it was kind of a breakthrough for me, yeah. it was.

SO sunday morning i woke up early and laid on my friends couch (which is my safe haven on all local late night adventures seeing as how she is my slowly reforming partner in crime), only to listen to the raindrops tapping on the pavement outside, i was so hoping for sun.. i didnt get up til early in the afternoon when it did finally become a gorgous day and i jumped in the car with Bee and Ree and we headed out for a drive. we ended up on a dirt road that went from damn to damn. we stopped at all the damns, climbing across and just spending time looking at the water, strollin around all the little dirt paths off, we found lots of drift wood, and a perfect fishing spot where we had a little fire, we didnt realize how fast time went by, we actually spent the whole day out hikin around strange woods, Lol, it was fantastic to enjoy the warm weather and get back to nature like that. everywhere we went we heard the strangest animal call, and it was like coming closer, and then it would like take off running but even though you could hear its feet you couldnt see anything, it was pretty crazy. A couple days before that me bee and ree all got into a friends truck and decided to go pittin but the pits just seemed like a tease so he ddecided to go off roading so we headed up on the highway and he pulled off onto this fourwheel path and we were like dude this is not meant for trucks but he seemed pretty confident so he just kept going, it was pretty intense, we almost lost it a couple times, but he was a really talented driver, bee had a little panic attack in the back seat so we cant take her anymore, Lol, but it was a lot of fun.

I have been spending all the possible time i can in the sun though, me and shannon actually went flying kites last week. it sounds so corny or juvenile or something but it was actually a lot of fun, and chuckie brought his little girl teyanna down to watch, so it was really cute. We were gonna go camping last night but we spent the day in the city and it was kinda a long one, so sometimes its nice just to curl up early and enjoy waking up before noon, Lol. well, i started packing this morning so i gotta get that done, and study and do homework and all that good thing, although im sure ill probably procrastinate atleast another half hour Lol. Peace*

so as you can guess from the title i just finished perfecting my speech for valedictorian of NSCC Class of 08'! i havent won yet but i was voted in and i do a speech infront of a panel of nine judges tomorrow at noon to see if i get it or not. im kinda in the disbelief stage right now because ive never been the kind of student to get noticed in this manner but when i got nominated i thought "man, thats pretty cool" Lol, so here goes. if i lose ill always be able to say i got further than nowhere and if i win, im motherfuckin valedictorian bitches!! LOL! so thats pretty much my main focus right now. Lol, i still cant even believe i went to college, i just might make it through this thing, Lol, these ten months will be quite a story someday im tellin you haha.
Peace*

Shit sons, been a looong time, Lol. but ive recently took up writing again and even though its going to be a long process before i ever get back to where i was before i think writing is worth never giving up on. sooo update: im in college now, and gay, Lol, whoa never seen that one commin! haha, actually you might have.. honestly i only mentioned it because youll notice that a lot of my poems are based on my lady loves now so i wanted to avoid the confusion and ward off haters before anyone actually reads my new stuff, and remember, im rebuilding my talent so go easy on me, Lol. however i want criticism so dont be afraid to comment if you think it could use some tweaking, im all about improvement. thanks - me*

So its 11:00pm on Xmas eve, and im sitting around my house having a few drinks, of course theres a house full of people here, there is always a house full or no one here, there is always too manyor not enough, its the story of my life

Well i lived a full day, not really, the whole thing is kinda scraped, but how much can you really do anymore? i went to wrok first thing in the morning, worked til after summer, cleaned the house and people started arriving. I both love and hate the people here, love some hate some, and its so weird that we are all in the same room, and those i love love those i hate, and theres so many mixed feelings, spiderwebs linking heart to heart, that eventually hook everyone in the room together, no matter how you feel about these people. and its the holidays, so you're basically not allowed to hate, which really, there are no laws on emotion, emotion being the only thing left with no laws sso im counting my days and taking full advantage, but also, im thinking, one day a year, which may mean nothing to me, but could be someone elses world, and one rude comment i make can go right off my shoulder, anmd i can forget i even said it the moment it leaves my lips can bother a person for aslong as they choose to dwell on it, because as far as ive learned people choose some funny things to dwell on, because we always need something to think about, something to bug us, its comforting, and lonely without it

the reason i hesitate to mention boys in my journal is because as soon as i do, everything fucks up, once again i proved that point, so now, the new guy is no more, i think we're still friends but other than a message on my myspace, i havent talked to him since, although im hoping we're still friends, he's an amazing guy regardless..

well, i got a new digital cam for xmas (thank fucking god) and now people are playing with that so im pretty sure im getting kicked off in a couple of seconds.

by the way i have a new obsession, Hey There Delilah by the PLain White T's.. awesome song, I cant get enough of it, im not even sure why, just something about it. im listening to it right now as i write, well not right now, because the song ended and i havent stopped long enopugh to put it back on, but you get the point, and i almost know all the words, and i just started listening to it yesterday, and im slow, Lol

well, i seen Mikey's new puppy tonight, LOVE HIM, he's soooooo cute, almost as much as mikey, not quite (all he needs is the accent thats clearly what does it) Lol, instead of Ryder he named himTyson, Cute, but i guess they're hooking up the cam, kicking me off, Lol

well, MERRY FREAKIN XMAS MOTHER-wigga shut yo mouth!

wow, so it really has been that long.. crazy.. so we're finally on Xmas break, but i might have to go back tomorrow to paint faces for kiddy day. I'm going to finish up my xmas shopping on wednesday i hope, i dont have much left to pick up. just a few little things. im just really not into the spirit of xmas yet.

so last week was kind of a rough one. I dont know, i think things just started getting to me. Mom and dad are fighting real bad again, it sucks. On top of it all, my grades arent doing so good, ive got canadian history riding my ass so bad i dont have time for any other subjects, and i havent stayed awake for a whole math class yet! (Lol) probably my fault because im always up late talking to *secret* (Lol, i know, i know, another one) and even though i say this everytime, this one's IS different, Lol, actually lets steer away from assumptions, and classifications, o well, he's a good time right now, someone to talk to while the guy im "seeing" is fucking around on me, screw him! Lol. well, my ex got back with his ex, which i thought was really funny cause you know how when a person is with you and the only thing they can tell you about their previous gf/wives is aweful horrible things she did and put them through and how glad they are to be away from that. and he told me so much about her, alot of really aweful things and how he was only with her because he felt he had no place else to turn, and of course there were the kids.. but anyways he's with her and i know whats going through his head, and he knows what he's really feeling, i know what he's really feeling, she doesnt, but im not going to be the one to bring it up, i dont want to be with him anymore, so its up to him to seperate himself from her, or maybe he was exagerating when telling me the stories and he really does want her, or mayube he's just got some built up sexaul frustration..Lol

well, anyways this new one isnt so new, we've been friends for two years now, i used to like him, but i never really said anything, besides its long distance, and long distance doesnt really have a good track record, so we're just friends or whatever, but he's really fun to talk to, and we've got alot in common, so we can takl about it all, i dont know, he just makes me feel alittle reassured about myself in a way.. its cool beans.

My friends apartment is being watched now, its kinda scary, everyone who came out of it on saturday night got stopped on the way home, coincidence? i dont think so...

so im still partying, but im going to work on cutting it down a bit, it costs a shit load and its getting old...

guess thats it for now, sad really, Lol.